I'm a total stupid fool .

Wad wad wad am i doing man ?! Stupid me. I'm sure no one will be more stupid den me in this world le ! Maybe i realli too long never had a gf le ba. Hais , Yesterdae was jus a total waste of chance. Chance ? Hais , let me told u wad happened. Guess you all also will laugh at me . Fridae , happily went down to top , cause i say le ma .. Sat i duty so fridae go down lo.. So fridae go ma.. my trip down to top not for drinking , onli thing is to see her.. lols .. Sweet rite ? but no one cares.. Everything was jus as fine as usual.. Played dice , poker , 5-10.. Saw her kpt losing and drinking . So when sometimes playing dice.. When i actually win her.. i don open up , den i jus take my cup and drink. Guess this is the onli way i can help her ba. Den sometimes drink wif her lohx.. But throughout the nite.. something was jus missing !! Is the smile from her face. It's no longer there. Hais , i also stupid lahx..Go there sleep .. stupid stupid. I should've keep her company and cheer her up ! The whole dae she jus keep pressing her hp. guess something went wrong ba.. asked her.. but she don wan to share. abit angry lahx.. lols =x so went out for a smoke. While smoking jade saw i'm alone , then came over and accompany me . Den i told jade wad happened lohx.. Den she also lmao.. told mi abt eugene. Aiyo , i seriously cannot even settle my stuffs , how to help u .. At least she like eugene lehx.. jux donno how to and when to settle down wif him nia. Unlike me , she don even like me !!!! = < Like that u still wan mi to say wad? Nothing to say le ma .. But i know myself de.. i veri persistent de . won gib up so easily de. So call her out to chat too . Wan treat her eat hongkong noodles de.. but she don like .. yaya!! happie happie.. now know 1 more thing she like ... yu pian mee fen !! haha..So chatted and chatted , i also don mind don go in to drink.. Cause all in all , i go down jus wanna see wenfen nia. Drink to me realli not impt. Hais , i realli wonder wad happened to her sia. I don wan to assume wad happened to her , so don say le lohx. After that i asked her where she is going after work. She told mi liquid bar. My heart realli sank to the btm.. But if she wanna go dwn .. Den i also bo bian ma. Happie can liao. I'm a veri easy going person and a stupid too ! Soon she left for liquid. Not long after she left , she sms mi , said she wanna go off.. i jux told her anyway i also going back to camp , together lohx.. Actually i got fren send mi back de. But hello ?? it's wenfen lehx.. and it's my 1st time sending her home lehx. Of course she is more important to me lahx!! So send her home lohx.. On the way out saw her boss , chat awhile ... Her boss also not bad , concern his waitress . Thanks boss ! Den i and her get up a cab . Soon after not long ~ i heard flu flu de sound. OMG !! i place my hand so shift hair abit .. all i saw is tears flowing down her face. You know how pain is my heart? Seeing the one u love crying and i can't do anything abt it . All i can is jux pass u tissue paper and sayang her head. FUCK u la junhong! You like and you know u love her !! Not treat her like a pet to sayang . You mus be brave abit to hug her ma ! This is wad i sat i had a chance but wasted ~.. So good de chance , to hug her and maybe eventually can be together de chance i wasted . Realli realli gong sia me .. The most sad think is we never head to her house.. we head to tamp to meet her fren . Hais.. it's a guy. i guess the guy sure win her herat de ba.. I;m a total loser. My heart sunk.

Thursdae ~

Todae is my most happiest dae of the week! Hahahaha.... She finally replied my sms fast !.. And i'm realli happie. All thanks to my fren "Jason , Keng hao , and my buddy Derek! Haha..without u guys i realli donno wad am i going to reply her. Haha, swee lahx.. I know it myself . I not a sweet talker so i guess she always get pissed off wif me cause the way i talk ? Or i will irritated her. But todae? !! Thanks for the support of my frens , She seems happie talking to me . And even wish mi luk for my trithalon event !! I'm realli veri happie !! =D Once in a blue moon this kind of happie stuff will fall on me ~.. Despite she is sleeping , she still pick up my phone and chat wif me . Thanks gal , i realli need to thanks u for appearing in my life ~.. Thanks . I know u are tired and stress cause of exam nowadaes .. so i promise not to stress u anymore . Let u concentrate on all ur exam work ! relationship and slowly build de. =x actually your sleepy voice i hear also cute cute de . LOLS ! No matter wad comes from u , i'll treat it as a treasure found to myself !! haha.. lmao me .. 21 years le .. finally found u. I won't give up so easily de. I realli hope somedae i will realli gan ton ni and you will feel how much i love u =x den decide to be my one and only gf. LOL~! Guess i'm still dreaming. HAHA. Anyway u rest well k ? Tomolo i sure go and see u de. Only tomolo is my dae to see u nia.. Sat i'm on duty so cannot. Can't wait to see my dear lee wen fen !! lols .. !! I go sleep liao , tired too .. Tomolo waking up at 6 for the run ! lols . Wen fen i go sleep le .. u too have a good good sleep !! nite hugs !! =D

Will my persistent work ?

daes without u are hurtful.. whenever i sms u , u never reply.. i felt worried and sad... knowing u are stress up wif examination.. so don't wan to stress u again ... when saw ur blog.. u stated that u are sick... i get so worried abt u .. so wanted to call u .. but u never pick up.. guess u are tired sleeping le ba... hope u get well soon !!! lols.. todae also got exam... everydae also exam.. till 11 nov.. hope the daes pass fast fast and u will get promoted ! all the best wen fen !!! jyjy !... when ur exams finished liao.. den we go out for a feast k !! take care always !

Am i a good talker ?

I was always wondering why my frens xian de cai more den i do.. where do i lose out ? lols.. after much consideration.. i know le ba.. guess is the way i talk to gals ba.. i hate it myself too.. but , thats me .. if u wan mi to be a fake person in front of u.. in order to get near u .. nahx , i jus think is a waste of time.. i'll jus be the real me.. if u like it.. den eventually u will come talk to me ... correct ? i also not so sure abt this.. but , wad can i do ? let mi jus say out an example... i and a group of 3 frens went to a pub.. we sat down .. i ordered a bottle of martel , and we kick off.. i know it myself , i sing no good so i don intend to sing.. think this i also lose out ba.. den i realli donno why , always waitress will go to my fren rather then me ? izzit the way i look or dress? i also not sure.. den they will happily talk and play.. left out me alone.. but nevertheless , i got a fren , who will always keep me company. he don realli care abt pub gals... so whenever i when to drink i will call him along.. back to track abit .. lols.. den he will sing those songs which got guy and gal de.. then he and the waitress will sing together.. i guess thats make them even closer? lols.. whenever i cannot stand it .. i will jus walk out the pub for a smoke.. not that i wan to smoke that much.. is i jus can't stand it . maybe cause i'm jealous ba.. so i step a step backwards and leave ? everytime i return .. i'll always see they smiling faces. hais.. wad should i do ? the gal i like doesn't even like mi .. stupid me , tot having a cake and a present will made her surprise.. yes indeed ! she got surprise , but still rejected me.. lols.. i realli like her.. but i realli don't know how to say to her ma... wad u wan mi to do.. i also not a good talker nor a sweet talker.. hais... i asked lao ban niang , she also say u like my fren more then u like me.. but i guess its fake.. cause u don even like me.. anyway.. i should thank u.. thanks for taking photograph wif mi.. i realli veri long never take photo wif other ppl le.. all the pics filled wif ur smiles ! thanks wenfen ! =x anyway.. i guess i will pursuit u .. cause i realli like u.. loving someone won give up so early de. i hope slowly u will get touch by me. cause this time round , i'm realli serious abt u . Dae 1

Blog is Born

Finally , after so long , i finally got my own blog , own world and ownself . All thanks to this gal gal , weiting ~ she help mi althought she is buzi wif her studies . but she made effort to help mi . realli appreciate it alot .. Todae 18/11/2006 aH hOnG wOrd is BORN!!! i wanted to create blog cause i find it interesting as most of my fren blog to relieve their problems online .. i wan to try it too .. although its quite mafan to blog and blog .. but if can relieve my stress y not ? Since todae is the 1st time i'm blogging . Of course i have alot to write.. i wanna write about my daily life , who am i actually , who i hate , who i like , who i love ..Actually i'm also same like all singaporean , by the way , i haven intro myself . i'm 18/m this year birthdae 21-10-1988..My name !! ---> Lim Jun Hong... the girl whom help mi in this blog is 3 days older then mi only!! she is 17-10-1988 !! haha.. so qiao hor.. then , about me..?i will state at my blog lohx.. u all can slowly read about mi and roughly gauge what person am i .. i don like english much.. everytime i speak chinese.. but bo bian .. also need improve.. so blog to improve my english too lohx.. hao bao thats all for the boring of my blog ba.. if i keep on type .. u all will read till sian .. thats all folks ~ One more thing , this is the 1st time i'm blogging maybe look not that good , wif ugly fonts and etc etc.. i'll try to improve on it to the best of what i like slowly.. sorrie =x