Am i a good talker ?

I was always wondering why my frens xian de cai more den i do.. where do i lose out ? lols.. after much consideration.. i know le ba.. guess is the way i talk to gals ba.. i hate it myself too.. but , thats me .. if u wan mi to be a fake person in front of u.. in order to get near u .. nahx , i jus think is a waste of time.. i'll jus be the real me.. if u like it.. den eventually u will come talk to me ... correct ? i also not so sure abt this.. but , wad can i do ? let mi jus say out an example... i and a group of 3 frens went to a pub.. we sat down .. i ordered a bottle of martel , and we kick off.. i know it myself , i sing no good so i don intend to sing.. think this i also lose out ba.. den i realli donno why , always waitress will go to my fren rather then me ? izzit the way i look or dress? i also not sure.. den they will happily talk and play.. left out me alone.. but nevertheless , i got a fren , who will always keep me company. he don realli care abt pub gals... so whenever i when to drink i will call him along.. back to track abit .. lols.. den he will sing those songs which got guy and gal de.. then he and the waitress will sing together.. i guess thats make them even closer? lols.. whenever i cannot stand it .. i will jus walk out the pub for a smoke.. not that i wan to smoke that much.. is i jus can't stand it . maybe cause i'm jealous ba.. so i step a step backwards and leave ? everytime i return .. i'll always see they smiling faces. hais.. wad should i do ? the gal i like doesn't even like mi .. stupid me , tot having a cake and a present will made her surprise.. yes indeed ! she got surprise , but still rejected me.. lols.. i realli like her.. but i realli don't know how to say to her ma... wad u wan mi to do.. i also not a good talker nor a sweet talker.. hais... i asked lao ban niang , she also say u like my fren more then u like me.. but i guess its fake.. cause u don even like me.. anyway.. i should thank u.. thanks for taking photograph wif mi.. i realli veri long never take photo wif other ppl le.. all the pics filled wif ur smiles ! thanks wenfen ! =x anyway.. i guess i will pursuit u .. cause i realli like u.. loving someone won give up so early de. i hope slowly u will get touch by me. cause this time round , i'm realli serious abt u . Dae 1