I'm a total stupid fool .

Wad wad wad am i doing man ?! Stupid me. I'm sure no one will be more stupid den me in this world le ! Maybe i realli too long never had a gf le ba. Hais , Yesterdae was jus a total waste of chance. Chance ? Hais , let me told u wad happened. Guess you all also will laugh at me . Fridae , happily went down to top , cause i say le ma .. Sat i duty so fridae go down lo.. So fridae go ma.. my trip down to top not for drinking , onli thing is to see her.. lols .. Sweet rite ? but no one cares.. Everything was jus as fine as usual.. Played dice , poker , 5-10.. Saw her kpt losing and drinking . So when sometimes playing dice.. When i actually win her.. i don open up , den i jus take my cup and drink. Guess this is the onli way i can help her ba. Den sometimes drink wif her lohx.. But throughout the nite.. something was jus missing !! Is the smile from her face. It's no longer there. Hais , i also stupid lahx..Go there sleep .. stupid stupid. I should've keep her company and cheer her up ! The whole dae she jus keep pressing her hp. guess something went wrong ba.. asked her.. but she don wan to share. abit angry lahx.. lols =x so went out for a smoke. While smoking jade saw i'm alone , then came over and accompany me . Den i told jade wad happened lohx.. Den she also lmao.. told mi abt eugene. Aiyo , i seriously cannot even settle my stuffs , how to help u .. At least she like eugene lehx.. jux donno how to and when to settle down wif him nia. Unlike me , she don even like me !!!! = < Like that u still wan mi to say wad? Nothing to say le ma .. But i know myself de.. i veri persistent de . won gib up so easily de. So call her out to chat too . Wan treat her eat hongkong noodles de.. but she don like .. yaya!! happie happie.. now know 1 more thing she like ... yu pian mee fen !! haha..So chatted and chatted , i also don mind don go in to drink.. Cause all in all , i go down jus wanna see wenfen nia. Drink to me realli not impt. Hais , i realli wonder wad happened to her sia. I don wan to assume wad happened to her , so don say le lohx. After that i asked her where she is going after work. She told mi liquid bar. My heart realli sank to the btm.. But if she wanna go dwn .. Den i also bo bian ma. Happie can liao. I'm a veri easy going person and a stupid too ! Soon she left for liquid. Not long after she left , she sms mi , said she wanna go off.. i jux told her anyway i also going back to camp , together lohx.. Actually i got fren send mi back de. But hello ?? it's wenfen lehx.. and it's my 1st time sending her home lehx. Of course she is more important to me lahx!! So send her home lohx.. On the way out saw her boss , chat awhile ... Her boss also not bad , concern his waitress . Thanks boss ! Den i and her get up a cab . Soon after not long ~ i heard flu flu de sound. OMG !! i place my hand so shift hair abit .. all i saw is tears flowing down her face. You know how pain is my heart? Seeing the one u love crying and i can't do anything abt it . All i can is jux pass u tissue paper and sayang her head. FUCK u la junhong! You like and you know u love her !! Not treat her like a pet to sayang . You mus be brave abit to hug her ma ! This is wad i sat i had a chance but wasted ~.. So good de chance , to hug her and maybe eventually can be together de chance i wasted . Realli realli gong sia me .. The most sad think is we never head to her house.. we head to tamp to meet her fren . Hais.. it's a guy. i guess the guy sure win her herat de ba.. I;m a total loser. My heart sunk.